I started this post almost a year ago but didn’t know whether I should share it or not or if anyone would really want to read it but I decided to update and finish it and take a chance and do this for me!
Please bear with me as I pour my heart out.
BUT if you really don’t want to read the whole thing, just skip to the end where I summarize and tell you about my lessons learned!
got fed up with life early in 2013 – needed a life change
ended a relationship that we both really tried hard to figure out
moved 5000 kms away from everyone I knew and loved in October 2013
had no job for the first four months, cleaned apartments to have a roof over my head
the people (friends) who you thought would support your decision didn’t – OUCH!!
Christmas of 2013 was the lowest point I had reached in quite sometime (a year after the death of someone I held very close to my heart and still miss). I had none of the “usual” things surrounding me that I took for granted – started to think I made a mistake and was contemplating my place in this big wide world
eventually found a job in a similar field to what I left behind but I was miserable almost every single day and the commute was 2 hours 20 minutes per day -ugh!
found new love and started a new life BUT nothing seemed easy (much turmoil in this relationship but that’s for another day)
one of the people who kept in touch (and still does almost daily) is a true inspiration and encouraged me because she told me she admires me and believes in me – POWERFUL WORDS that I needed and I don’t think she realized just how much – this I am forever grateful for
I had some very bad luck with my health for what seemed like almost an entire year (mid 2014- mid 2015), a surgery that went wrong, three trips to hospital by ambulance, two that resulted in overnight stays and another surgery
I needed to take charge of my life and get things back on track and find things that made me happy
thanks to the encouragement of my dear friend I started blogging again after a long hiatus – changed the name to be more reflective of who I am today
when I moved I liquidated most of the things I had collected, then when I got settled into my new life I started missing some of those things, especially the things that bring back good memories
I slowly started to collect vintage items again, it sort of turned into an obsession, which turned into an on-line vintage FB and Etsy selling business
I changed jobs after 15 months and it was the best move for me, my commute now is only 17 minutes each way
It’s been two years to the day since my brother-in-law passed away from pancreatic cancer. I know people always say that those with cancer fight a courageous battle but Greg was the epitome of that, always more concerned about others than himself. Although he knew he was leaving this earth, there was never any self-pity.
Something sticks in my head that someone said at his funeral and that was, “I didn’t know him very long, but he made you feel like he knew you your whole life and I wish I had been able to spend more time around him”!!! We all wanted more time with him.
I could probably type for days about this wonderful person I had the privilege to call family but I’ll leave off here with the poem my sister picked for his memorial.
In Loving Memory:
You can shed tears that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back or you can open your eyes and see all he has left.
Your heart can be empty because you cannot see him, or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him and only that he’s gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back, or you can do what he’d want, Smile, open your eyes, Love and go on!!!
If you read my post on November 07, 2014 you know that I crave a good night’s sleep (I have been practicing what I preach and am up to almost 4 hours in a row now…woo hoo). Sorry I digressed. When I was reading my fav blogs this week and came across this at The Chic Site well I knew I would have to try it and do a post.